Is it May yet?

Although I am happy to hear that he will be coming home in May, I am a little saddened by how far away that is. I know that it could be worse but right now that just seems so far away. I didn't have to wait this long to meet him for the first time. I have no idea what to do anymore. Do I wait? Do I try to move on? Does he even want me? Everything is just so damn hard. If I wait, and he doesn't want me, then I will have wasted all this time for absolutley nothing. I could potentially be missing out on a good relationship. But what if I don't wait? What if I move on? What will I do if I find out that he did want to be with me? How am I going to feel when I realize that i have ruined everything with him? I know how I feel right now. I know how I have felt since I started talking to him in December. I know what i want but can I wait for it. It's hard not knowing how he really feels about me. Does he want me? Would he rather I was just a friend? So many questions and not enough answers....